quarta-feira, 4 de maio de 2005

Karma de merda

Hoje não fui trabalhar porque fiquei a dormir até às 20h. Adormeci às 5h, com 6 lorenins. Ontem tive de tomar 8 para adormecer à mesma hora. Quando adormeço volto a ser um bebé. Nada me acorda. Nada nem ninguém pode contar comigo.
Quando acordo e vejo a merda que fiz desato chorar. Sinto-me impotente e incapaz. Não há lugar para os fracos e para os diferentes. Vou ser trucidada.

Nunca consegui dormir de noite. O meu ciclo de sono nada tem a ver com as 24 horas de um dia. O meu organismo rejeita cada vez mais os horários em que a maioria acha normal movimentar-se.
No tempo pré-histórico, alguém tinha de cuidar do fogo e afastar os predadores da tribo adormecida.
Eu sou aquele que vigia.

Tudo sobre o Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome

Delayed sleep phase syndrome (DSPS) is a fairly common disorder of sleep timing. People with DSPS tend to fall asleep at very late times, and also have difficulty waking up in time for normal work, school, or social needs.

Main Symptoms of DSPS
DSPS causes sleep-onset insomnia. Often, DSP individuals report that they cannot sleep until early morning. Unlike most other insomniacs, however, they fall asleep at about the same time every night, no matter what time they go to bed.
Unless they have another untreated sleep disorder (such as sleep apnea) in addition to DSPS, patients can sleep well, and have a normal need for sleep. Therefore, they find it very difficult to wake up in the morning if they have only slept for a few hours. However, they sleep soundly, wake up spontaneously, and do not feel sleepy again until their next "night," if they are allowed to follow their own late schedule, e.g. sleeping from 4 am to noon.
Symptoms have been present for at least a month, and usually much longer.

What Causes DSPS?
DSPS is believed to be a disorder of the body's timing system - the biological clock. DSP patients have fifficulty falling asleep and difficulty waking because their biological clocks are out of phase with the sleeping and waking times they try to carry out. DSPS is similar to jet lag, but much longer-lasting. It can develop suddenly or gradually.

You probably have heard of a biological clock which governs growth, reproductive cycles, and aging. There are also bodily rhythms, known as circadian rhythms, which are also controlled by a biological clock and which work on a daily time scale. You might have already noticed, in yourself or in others, that sleepiness doesn't just keep increasing as it gets later. Rather, the drive for sleep follows a cycle, and the body is ready for sleep and for wakefulness at different times of the day.
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Posso traduzir se alguém estiver interessado. Também me podem fornecer links para consulta e avanços da Ciência em português (isto é, em Portugal). Era bom saber que os médicos em Portugal conhecem (no mínimo) o fenómeno.

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